everything is still glazed over with that veneer
granted by impermanence / everyone is still
glittering, black hair frosted to silver twine
in the harsh light-splatter that breaks between
& this is all transitional:
you are uninjured until you look up at the mirror
& a bruise unscrolls plump below your wrist
in that dehydrated shade of red-brown-purple
like a wilting
blossom crunching through autumn,
core & all / it bites back with the tips of its seeds.
siri, where’s the nearest dumpster?
potential answer #1: it started as a joke but now i think we are more afraid of the answer than we are of continuing to laugh at straw wrappers or banana peels. i keep hiding the sadness in places where i expect it to be found & try not to be disappointed when no one looks down as they scrape their plates clean. we are both better at existing in the name of other people. by this i might mean existing so we can blame other people for it. by this i might mean we don’t like to be held responsible for our own unhappiness, how it turns stretched-out and clingy, twirling into long strands like spaghetti wound around a fork. how every new & old aspect of moving through the world sticks to it like herbs in its sauce.
potential answer #2: it started as a joke but it’s not that we don’t know how to be good. it’s that we don’t know how to be good to each other.
être dans la lune
every day now, a lullaby called moonlight
twines its roots alongside the roots of your hair
the way liars bend the wire of every word
into the shape of its own antonym.
the world floats behind the tight mesh
of a window screen, blunted
with the milky disorientation of waking
from a nap that swam too deep
into a weekday afternoon. every day now
you mark time in the changing letters
on local license plates. keep expecting
a mask to be made from every metaphor
but there was nothing brittle about your legs
knotted together, sweat-sticky in the summer
afternoon. nothing false about your hands,
mechanical through her hair.
Art by Eugenia Loli
Eugenia Loli is a filmmaker and collage artist. Originally from Greece, she’s now spent many years living in California. Before art took over her life she worked in the technology sector. Instagram: @eugenia_loli